The last couple of weeks have been kind of weird weeks for me.  I’ve been kind of off.  Off center, off my routine, off my regular sleep cycle, off in my eating.  Part of what was going on with me was some unusual pain I was experiencing in my back and not being able to readily identify what had caused it.  I did my best to stay centered and take care of myself during this time, and to just go with my flow, but it felt like it was a bigger challenge for me to do that than usual.

In the last few days, things have started to slowly clear a bit for me.    My back is doing significantly better and the pain is almost gone.  I’ve been able to engage in some good movement and strengthening exercises and it felt good to do that.  My mind has quieted more and I’ve been better able to just let myself be where I am, feel whatever I am feeling, and be at peace with that.  I feel like I’m re-centering more again, and from that I am experiencing the peace that comes with that.  

I’m still feeling like there is something more for me to see, to realize, to become aware of from all that I have been experiencing though, and I’m not yet clear on what all that is.  So I guess right now, what is before me is just for me to be where I am with that and remain open and grateful to the flow for whatever it brings to me regarding that.  And whenever that happens.

Maybe one of the things that is set before me to learn right now is about being accepting of and good with all that I don’t know.  Trust.  Surrender.  And being aware of and acknowledging what I do and do not have control over, and how to more gracefully live in that process.  I did have a dream in the last week that really stuck with me, and I can clearly see a major theme in that being the experience and realization of not being in control of so many things in the dream.  That could very well be a metaphor for all that I am not in control of in my daily life, and who knows – maybe it ties into what is going on for me on my path right now.  

So I guess I’ll just stay centered, open, and grateful for all that makes up what comes to me on my path.  And go with that flow.  That is the Divine, after all, and I know that nothing is random. So I know that I am exactly where I need to be.

I hope you let yourself be wherever you are today with peace.